LIFE IS CALLED THE UNEXPECTED. WHERE YOU LAND, YOU’LL NEVER KNOW.

LIFE MOVES VERY FAST. IT RUSHES FROM HEAVEN TO HELL IN A MATTER OF SECONDS. ~ Paulo Coelho

WE PLAN AND PLAN AND PLAN… THE MOST HIGH MAKES THE FINAL ARRANGEMENTS.

ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN IN A MATTER OF SECONDS, WITHOUT OUR CONSENT.

I CONSIDER MYSELF A SPIRITUAL BEING, BUT THERE’S A SPIRITUAL BEING HIGHER THAN MYSELF. 

WE HAVE TO ENJOY LIFE THE BEST WAY POSSIBLE.

JUST REMEMBER WE ALL ENDURE THE SAME UN- EXPECTANCIES, JUST NOT AT THE SAME TIME.~ DTRC

 

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Me And My Clock Are Tight…

I never took the clock serious. I just set it to the right time, wait for the alarm to ring, or just check it every now and then, to know what time of the day it is. But never payed close attention to this learning tool. For years I would start something, and never finish. The clock never stopped. When I put something off for whatever reason, the clock never stopped. When I said I’ll do it tomorrow, the clock kept on ticking. When I said I’ll make my way, the clock didn’t hesitate. He said I’ll probably beat you there. The meaning of the clock is Time. Time waits for no one. It have a purpose, goals, and knows what It’s here to do, and continue to persevere. We can learn a lot from a clock…

Me and my Body…

I’ve been ashamed of my body for such a long time. I can’t keep blaming pushing out six kids for my unfit body, especially if they’re in their twenties and thirties. I think I’m just mad for not being consistent with my exercise regimen. I’d start, then stop and complain afterwards. I feel I eat healthy. I Just need to incorporate daily exercise. I just get on my own nerve. Hahahaha!! I had to laugh just now. It’s a difference of you not knowing what to do verses knowing what to do. And, I know what to do, ugh! I need a FREE personal trainer to come to my door and say give me ten right now. I’ll succeed at my fitness goals soon enough.

Roller Coaster

I’m still on this roller coaster ride called life. Like I always stated, raising children and being in a relationship is the hardest job on earth. You think because the light is green, it means go. When you’re almost at that green light, the light turns red. I awaken blessed with much gratitude, and determination. So inspired, ready for the world. Then the phone ring, then my life is just not my life. I know God have a plan for me, he definitely knows my plans. I guess he feels his plans are better than mine. Well I believe and have faith in him. He brought me this far. There’s one thing I know for sure is I’m better then yesterday. I am thankful me and my children woke up this morning. I love my children we/they are supportive of each other. It’s such a blessing. We have to be, living in this roller coaster, we call life. The ups and downs. We don’t know what’s installed for us, nobody knows. We’re living in a world of confusion. Everyone’s trying to understand the word why. Why me, why you, why them, why us. How can we be sane, in a world of insanity. Yesterday was good, today was not so good, just saying. I have somewhat of a understanding about life and death. We live and we die. We have to go to come back. Right now at this moment, I’m enjoying listening to peaceful music while doing my laundry. Lord continue to cover, hold, and keep us out of harms way. Forgive me and my children for our past, present and future sins, for we will sin, without our consent. Let me end this by saying, today, right now and the rest of the evening will be wonderful. I believe, I have Faith. Praying for continued blessings and favor. ~ DTRC

Live Tomorrow Today

Yesterday I felt extremely emotional due to the untimely death of my GodSister Jacqueline, aka Jack to all that knew her. When I first got the call of her passing, I felt numb and  slightly dazed. It felt like I was going to faint. I just couldn’t believe what I was hearing. All I can think about was her children and grandchildren. See, Jack and our families were very close. We grew up together. We use to live around the corner from one another. We use to spend a lot of time together, spend the night at each other’s house. Go outside and play until it got dark, and go to the neighborhood pool. Then we started dating, and comparing notes. Just doing our own thing. I still remember when you told me a guy you were dating liked me. Then you got mad with me. I didn’t know until you told me. That was crazy. Then you got over it. I’m glad, I was interested in him. Well life went on, then relationships started, and kids were born. We would still visit each other, but not as often. Then I moved out the neighborhood,  and we lost all contact. Our parents basically kept in touch. I was told throughout the years she was experiencing heart trouble. And the last time I heard from her was a couple months ago. We spoke about our families and their well being. I’m glad I had the opportunity to speak with her, I just wish we could’ve gotten together. She died young from heart failure. I don’t know when she first started experiencing heart problems. I’m quite sure she had limitations, unable to live life like before, like taking medication, and eating certain foods. Just Change of lifestyle. It probably was hard on her and being in pain. I can’t imagine the pain her children are experiencing, because they were very close. I heard at the time of death she was living with her daughter. To make matters worse, she just lost her Mom and a cousin last year. I’m praying for them. My heart is aching. I’m going to truly miss you Jack. I love you so so much😘

We All Experience The Same Pain.

Life’s something else. You never know what’s next. You wake up exuberant, ready for the world. Then your phone rings, or someone’s knocking at the door. You answer hoping with good intentions at the other end. Then bam, it’s always something. It just never ends. Well it’s called trials and tribulations, that was told to me. Who knew it would last a lifetime. Yes everything is a lesson, and yes everything happens for a reason. I’m still learning how to handle situations that arise. I listen to other people stories, and I think my story is bad, it’s not the case of whose is worse. It’s just knowing we are all in pain. Some suffer in silence, and some become rebellious, and some for the most part exercise their pain outwardly. And, in hopes not negatively. The worst is in silence in which they suppress it. When feelings are suppressed, it tend to cause anger, bitterness, and worst case scenario, ailments. Pain needs to be addressed, when denial is pushed aside. We have to reach out, when we understand we’re not alone. I know it’s it easy, but we have to find a way to handle any feeling of pain. We have to get support and start to heal the pain.

WHAT MAKES IT SO HARD TO ASK FOR HELP?

Why it’s so hard for me to ask for help? I’ve struggled my whole life without  asking for anything. If I did ask, trust me I was in dire need. I felt like if I was to ask, I want to return it in a timely fashion. It was so bad that I’d actually waited until it was offered to me. Me and whom ever would strike up a conversation about life, and what is needed, then bingo, a offer would be placed. And, I’d still be stubborn about taken it.  How ugly is that. I feel we all need, and I didn’t want to take anything someone else needed. My Pride killed a lot of my dreams. Not that it gotten any better, I ask , but it’s rarely ever for me. I was told by a family member about two years ago, the reason I don’t have what I want is that I never ask for help. At that moment I didn’t respond, I just let it resonate. A couple of days later, I thought about what was said to me and couldn’t believe how true it was. It’s so crazy how I watched and listened to  family and friends ask for what they wanted and needed. I never did, I couldn’t, my pride wouldn’t let me, it just shut me down, like a hand was over my mouth. I happened to be watching Super Soul Sunday with Oprah Winfrey, and the question presented itself. Why it’s so hard to ask for help. My eyes watered, and I said to myself, that’s my biggest block. When I do ask, it’s not even for me. When I need something for me, before I even ask I’m too busy trying to figure out how to repay it, and feeling bad for asking. I’m still trying to figure it out. What I do know is; it have a lot to do with me as a person. I learned that you get what you give. So in saying in that, I have to accept and appreciate the beauty of people. I consider myself a giver of life, through words, action, and just given of myself. I love that about me, it feels really good. I just have to open up a bit to the possibility of asking and receiving, and how it can benefit me and others. I’m still a work in progress.

IN MY THOUGHTS

I’m still on this roller coaster ride called life. Like I always stated, raising children and being in a relationship is the hardest job on earth. You think because the light is green, it means go. When you’re almost at that green light, the light turns red. I awaken blessed with much gratitude, and determination. So inspired, ready for the world. Then the phone ring, then my life is just not my life. I know God have a plan for me, he definitely knows my plans. I guess he feels his plans are better than mine. Well I believe and have faith in him. He brought me this far. There’s one thing I know for sure is I’m better then yesterday. I am thankful me and my children woke up this morning. I love my children we/they are supportive of each other. It’s such a blessing. We have to be, living in this roller coaster, we call life. The ups and downs. We don’t know what’s installed for us, nobody knows. We’re living in a world of confusion. Everyone’s trying to understand the word why. Why me, why you, why them, why us. How can we be sane, in a world of insanity. Yesterday was good, today was not so good, just saying. I have somewhat of a understanding about life and death. We live and we die. We have to go to come back. Right now at this moment, I’m enjoying listening to peaceful music while doing my laundry. Lord continue to cover, hold, and keep us out of harms way. Forgive me and my children for our past, present and future sins, for we will sin, without our consent. Let me end this by saying, today, right now and the rest of the evening will be wonderful. I believe, I have Faith. Praying for continued blessings and favor. ~ DTRC